Pregnancy Discussions => General Pregnancy! => : cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 04:44:24 PM

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: cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 04:44:24 PM
Pregnancy was not sucessfull, hcg dropped to 300, looks like everything ended and passed this weekend. Gotta go back in a week and make sure it's still dropping.
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: Fergie_mama August 22, 2011, 04:48:03 PM
Sorry, sweetie. Thanks for letting us know.
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: thatchers momma August 22, 2011, 04:49:19 PM
Oh I'm sorry to hear that! Keeping you and your family in our prayers :)!
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: cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 04:51:00 PM
Thank you. I really wish i were back in missouri right now. I don't wanna be in colorado right now at all.
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: Ash-momma August 22, 2011, 05:04:57 PM
:( so sorry for your loss.
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: Mommy7 August 22, 2011, 05:20:26 PM
I'm sorry darling! My thoughts & prayers are with you!
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: cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 05:23:46 PM
Thank you. I don't know why i am cryin, i already knew this is what they were gonna say.
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: Mommy7 August 22, 2011, 05:35:03 PM
I understand, but finally hearing can make the flood of emotions come back and become real.

For me there was a difference between knowing and accepting. There were different stages to grieving.

I'm sorry! I know how difficult it is. It will get better.. Don't be scared to reach out or ask people for support or what you need to get through this difficult time.
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: cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 05:45:56 PM
Thank you :) you've been great through this whole thing.
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: jullis2000 August 22, 2011, 05:53:39 PM
Im so sorry to hear that sweetheart. I know exactly what u r going through, had similar story late february. But accidentally got pregnant less than a month later. Be strong during this extremely emotional time. We all right here if u need us
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 22, 2011, 06:05:12 PM
I'm sorry deary.. I hope you keep your head up. Wish I could take you out for a well deserved girls day!!!! <333
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: cleojunction August 22, 2011, 07:13:39 PM
I'm so so sorry. It's ok to be sad all over again. They took away that last bit of hope. I've been there and I get it. I'm here for you and thinking about you.
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: simmy August 22, 2011, 08:35:16 PM
Im sorry:(
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: hmlamb81 August 22, 2011, 09:19:09 PM
I'm so sorry to hear that. :( I can't even imagine what that's like. Ugh!
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: miamom August 22, 2011, 09:37:42 PM
Awwwww....I know u "knew" it, but that doesn't make it easier to hear....u always had hope until they told sorry....quit being so strong for a little bit & let urself grieve your loss before u move on....hugs & prayers....
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: grace_and_two August 22, 2011, 09:48:47 PM
Hugs! :-(
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: ginia2581 August 22, 2011, 10:01:52 PM
So sry cowgirl :( when I had my miscarriage I cried for days but I had a healthy baby afterwards n I'm now 22weeks with number 3
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: Krystle427 August 22, 2011, 11:52:14 PM
So sorry for your loss! :-(
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: cowgirl momma August 22, 2011, 11:57:37 PM
I feel so defective and useless. I havent been able to get my house cleaned because i have been so exhausted and sick and i cant even manage to stay pregnant. i feel like i am failin everyone and at everything. I was so happy. It seemed like everything was startin to look up and then the rug was pulled out from under me. I shoulda known better. Everytime i get pregnant everything falls apart. Maybe i should take the hint.
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 12:05:33 AM
I'm sorry ladies. I still have so so much to be grateful for and happy about and here i am throwin a tantrum like a child. I'm sorry.
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: melmel59 August 23, 2011, 12:09:04 AM
I'm so sorry for your loss. One thing that has helped me deal with past miscarriages is the book "heaven is for real".  Tells a little boys story--he almost died, then a couple months later, says " mom, i have another sister." He had not Been told about his mothers miscarriage (and she didn't know the sex either) because he was too young. Gave me much needed hope that i will meet all of my lost angels one day.  On the best seller list still, i think.  Hugs and prayers for you, dear. 
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: danyelra August 23, 2011, 12:23:23 AM
So sorry for your loss, cowgirl! :(you're in my prayers. <3
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: preggieHAP August 23, 2011, 12:46:56 AM
I am so sorry cowgirl. :( I wish I could take your pain away. You are an amazing, strong woman with such a huge heart. You have every right to feel sad, but please know you are not a failure at anything. Just rest now and know that your little angel is with God watching over you. We are here for you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. <3
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: alinasmom+1 August 23, 2011, 12:49:35 AM
I dont know you but i know that you have been a very supportive person tO all us girls that need support. You have been there for all of us the way we need to be there for you now. I know it is hard to deal with this and honestly dont know what to say.. I didnt want anyone talking to me When i had my mc i just wanted to crawl in a ball and cry in my bedroom. The doctor told me i lost the baby due to something wrong with my uterus and that when my body let go of the baby it also let go of the problem in my uterus. My husband told me that "This baby died so her brothers and sisters could live" It hurt for so long but if anyone can pull through this i have faith that it is you! I now have a beautiful baby girl who will be 2 in october and i am 17 weeks pregnant! You will have beautiful children and never forget the one you lost! I lov you and your support and you will be in my prayers! (sorry if i just rambled) (my point it you are an amazing woman and very strong and i admire you greatly for that!)
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: Abby4989 August 23, 2011, 03:49:36 AM
Don't say that....ur making me cry.

U will have ur time, just that next time stay in bed rest for the 9months. Plz dont give up! :'( <3
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: Mommytotie August 23, 2011, 04:33:20 AM
I found out my lo didn't have a heart beat on the 10th, I was 15 weeks, I feel the same way, useless, talk to your doc about an antidepressant, it may help. We aren't useless, everything will work out.
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: miamom August 23, 2011, 07:54:50 AM
Don't apologize for being upset & venting to have been one of the sweetest most supportive women I know & u r entitled to grieve your loss....I'm sure ur wonderful hubby also understands....I just wish I could 'take the hurt away' but I know I can't.....just know that I, and the rest of these wonderful women are here to offer any kind of support we can....hugs & prayers....
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 10:31:43 AM
Thank you ladies, you always have helpful words.

Its gonna be hard for a while, i am surrounded by women in my "normal" life that are due days apart from when i was. I am happy for them, but still sad. I am almost too afraid to try again. My two year old asked about mommys baby and i just cried. Maybe its time to dye my hair lol. Time for somethin new :)
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 10:46:10 AM
So with this whole ordeal i lost 8 pounds, so i posted a pic on facebook just tryin to find any sort of silver lining or normality and someone posted this.... "Is this a baby bump oh just the way your standing? I want baby bump pix"

So i had to re-explain. I thought that was the point of makin a status update. Blah. Oh well.
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: Abby4989 August 23, 2011, 01:45:49 PM
=( omggggg... Just try to stay positive for ur kids. Ur a great mom! N I knw u will have another baby.

I cant explain with words how I feel but if I could hug u right now, the way I will tell u alot. :/
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 02:03:34 PM
Cowgirl .. you would look adorable with light brown hair and lots of blonde weaved in!! Doooo ittttt.
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 02:11:32 PM
Thank you abby, i'm imagining the huh :)

Tiffany i'm actually thinkin red cause my hair is black right now, its never easy to get the black to go to brown lol. Although the red may be a disaster too lol. My fiance would love for me to do somethin with brown though lol.
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 04:08:33 PM
ehh.. love red.. for awhile but its the hardest color to get rid of and always comes back. It's not as hard as you would think to lighten it.. really with your skin tone you would look really pretty and less pale. Not that you aren't adora
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: Mommy7 August 23, 2011, 04:08:34 PM
I went black to brown. It actually wasn't that hard our bad. I actually went black to blonde, but took three sessions.

When got pregnant in. feb. I went back to dark brown/black before the miscarriage.

Now that I'm in second trimester, I'm going to go back to carmel blonde highlights.

I agree with Tiffany, you could go with light brown highlights. A 2:1 ratio 2 light to 1 natural.
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 04:09:51 PM
Grrrrrr cut me short!!!! Not that you aren't adorable now of course!!!
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 04:11:57 PM
Red may pale you out depending on the shade.
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 04:15:33 PM
Yeah i had black hair for nearly 5 years and it took 3 times if strippin it and 1 bleachin to get it out. It was awful lol. Now its been black for a couple months (i've always liked it cause my moms hair is naturally black) and this'll be my third time tryin to dye over the black.

My hair is naturally hazelnut brown with natural red highlights so red sticks in my hair pretty well. But alas, yet again not all the black was covered.
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 04:17:05 PM
Are you doing it yourself???
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: Mommy7 August 23, 2011, 04:19:49 PM
Lol... Tiffany you just took the question out of my mind... Lol
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 04:26:40 PM
My sister helped me do it this time lol
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 04:36:53 PM
Arrrrrg. Well, try to go to a salon next time. Wish your ass lived closer.. I do a pretty good job. *pats self on back*
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 04:47:15 PM
Haha i'll keep that in mind for my next road trip ;)

I've only ever had my hair done professionally once lol i forget to do my makeup alot too.
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 23, 2011, 08:40:03 PM
If you make your way here ever.. were ganna have funnnnn Muahahahaahahaa ;)
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 09:03:51 PM
Hahaha i'll take your word on it :)
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: cowgirl momma August 23, 2011, 10:22:46 PM
Oh my good lord almighty these flippen mood swings need to back the heck down already!!!! I cannot believe how freakin insane my emotions are, they're all over the place like a collie or coon dog on crack. Ugh. Lol
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: Mommy7 August 24, 2011, 12:27:17 AM
I actually ended up talking to the doctor about my emotions & depression after my miscarriage in Feb.

I was put on an depressant... It to my suprise is possibles to get some post postpartum even after miscarriage.

I figured depression I could understand, but I was having mood swings ask over the board. Was told that out was likely post postpartum and would be better once hormones balanced out... Have meds to stabilize things until my body did.
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 24, 2011, 12:29:39 AM
Either way.. its safe to say it would be normal. It's a traumatic experience.
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: cowgirl momma August 24, 2011, 10:17:05 AM
Thanks ladies... Guess i don't feel so bad now. I really hope i can avoid medication. I hadta be on 'em alot for manic depression even as a teen (i know, makes me more suseptible (sp) to post partum depression) and they could never get the dose balanced out, it was yucky.

P.s. Sorry y'all about my massive spellin errors overtime. I am actually well educated and used to be an excellent speller and speaker. However in 08, 6 days after my oldest daughter was born i went into a coma and on life support followed by dialysis for a while even when i woke up. Because of the coma and alot of the medications they had me on it effected some of my memory abilities. Dont remember things from childhood i should, cant spell things i should be able to spell, its sad. Anyways wanted to tell y'all so ya didnt think i just didnt pass english class or somethin. I actually graduated 2 years early at 16 and started college at 17. Lol
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: TiffanyNicoleB August 24, 2011, 10:27:47 AM
Lol. Nope! I was in the top English class in college, but it's just a forum and It's via phone with crazy autocorrect.
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: cowgirl momma August 24, 2011, 10:33:39 AM
Haha this is true.

Bah! I lost 8 pounds, but my hips didnt go back down. I cant fit into alot of my skinny.clothes and the ones i can are crazy tight lol
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